I saw myself today in a place i'll never forget, i finally found Viennas 'oasis'. (the websites nothing compared to the actual place)
Location: Viennas old stock stockmarket, below Tricaffé. (Schottenring 16, 1010 Vienna)

After picking up Karins bouquet, i wanted to look around and i bumped into Mark.
Mark was my first 'official' bf (nyarks.. ) we were together for a month, the most awkward relationship i ever had, awkward because, we were both young, stupid (i was.. still am?), and too giddy. We talked about our current situations, and i tried to avoid talking about the past, but he was persistent.. I can barely remember the day, but according to him it was me who gave him the fright of his life. 4 years ago, on a sunny July afternoon he found me in my own pool of blood. Until now, i cannot explain my actions then, my depression was so great, it made me blind and selfish. After that incident, we started avoiding each other, i tried to put my life back in track, piece by piece, and he kept himself busy, with work and school.

almost 4 years of absolute stillness between us, of course we heard the usual chikas about one another, but we never really took them seriously.

We talked, and our conversation maybe lots of things, but it wasnt awkward. It was open, real, and refreshing. I had one great day.

In the end, he went home to his wife, i went back to work with Karins bouquet... smiling. (at least, i was)

btw, i'm going to be Ninang to his baby =)